Im a female. I have a thing called teratophilia. It means ab attraction to hidiously ugly deformed things. Its kind of like a phobia but reverse where i love it instead. Growing up talking about beauty id sometimes get asked the question 'can you see?' usually followed by 'hes ugly!' but as an artist i was atempting to look even closer than most people or so i had always believed. Ive read the blackpill science and im aware of their milimeter differences in proportions and things like that. But i think women... Because of the position that we are forced into in regards to our sexuality and selection consider so many other things in regards to mate selection because we must. Because for a 'normal' woman to follow her greedy lustful instinct to mate with beauty will be labeled a whore. Yes i think women are as visually stimulated as men but because our lives are threatened so often we see even further now into the spiritual. Not just the physical. I finally realized this when i gave up trying to draw what i saw and started trying to draw what i felt. People think blackpill science is some kind of dooming indicator of the sexual revolution and females gaining power but i disagree. I think the blackpill can be liberating in leading us to the conclusion we must accept the superficial in order to overcome it.