Can we discuss orthorexia?

I go through orthorexia phases. Either I'm eating "super healthy" for a few months or relapse into BED where I only eat garbage. Its exhausting. I want it to end but I cant find a normal medium. Either its all fast food chips and chocolate or I'm on whatever diet I consider "pure" at the time. When I'm in the oretherixa phase I feel better but that's only because when I'm in my BED phase I eat so poorly. I dont know why I cycle between the two but I hate it. Right now I have so many "no rules". No sugar, no sugar substitutes including honey, no gluten, no corn (except organic), no legumes, no soy, no dairy, only a palm full of rice a week max, no more than a thumb of oil but best avoided, no double processed foods.

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