Hey! I just thought I'd offer some perspective from someone who has tried to become friends with their abuser after the fact. I am a 22 year old female, and last year I was initially assaulted by a friend of a friend. After the attack I was left feeling broken and sought protection from my male friends. I have known them all for many years as we have been in school together since kindergarten. I ended up telling intimate details of my attack to a friend that I will refer to as C. C seemed weird at the mention of my attack, but I desperately needed someone to talk to so I told him what happened a few times and chalked his awkwardness up to not knowing what to say to a victim. A month later, I asked C to come over to a house where I was watching a dog. We ended up getting drunk and that night, as I lay sleeping, he did to me exactly what my first abuser did. I repressed it. I had to. In order for me to survive the betrayal I had to repress it. Months went by and my relationship with C went almost back to normal. I had almost forgotten what had happened but I held onto the memory of what happened (minus most of the horrific details) and just knew I didn't feel safe around him. Six months after he assaulted me, C assaulted another girl in our friend group. He did the same thing to her that he did to me. And every day since then, I have blamed myself. I urge you to stay away from him. Even if he doesn't rape you again, I guarantee he will rape someone else. He cannot be trusted. He is not your friend. He doesn't care how many nights you've cried or how his presence affects you. For the sake of your sanity, stay away from him. I hope everything works out for you and that your recovery keeps going well. Please keep us updated through PMs or posts.