I have to admit that as a straight cis male who experiences some guilt over the privilege that gives me, I also nonetheless enjoy it when femdoms fuck with that guilt, and I even sometimes like the whole "sissy" thing in small measures as a kind of shamey headgame. I recognize that it is completely unfair not only that I have that privilege but that even my complex feelings around it manage to be transformed into a form of entertainment for me that compensates me for any downsides, while other people experience few moments of joy with immense downsides.

This is a totally ugly reality that defaces the world around me in any moment that my self awareness lapses, and I'm responsible for it. I wear the mask of the patriarchy, and while that explains my behavior sometimes, it doesn't excuse it. I can only keep recommitting to doing as little damage as I can.

What I am starting to realize lately after reading a handful of counter-transphobic posts, is that it's also unfair that the sissy kink, which is a mixed bag in terms of cultural origin but whose emotional center seems to be male guilt, has become such a center of gravity in the kink community that it eclipses a broader consciousness of the intersection of gender identity and kink. And the extent to which images of trans people are used in visual hypno media to shame males with is pure transphobia (just as the images of black males in some strain of the cuckold fetish is outright racist). That these psychological threads in my mind contribute to this larger marketplace that totally warps all gender identities in relation to not just my vanilla identity, but my darkside fantasies as well, is a horrible bind, and such a cruelty. I have more thoughts on this but I can't write them right now. I feel so, so terrible. I wish I knew what I could do. All I can think of is to try to accept your feedback as best as I can OP.