Can a previously sexually arousing thing from my teenage years become a sexually intrusive image/fantasy fuelled by the guilt I feel? Or am I just in denial?

Yes it can. I used to consume tons of hentai when I was 15/16, including lolis and shotas. Now I suffer from POCD, it’s fucked up but remember one thing, a fantasy is a fantasy, reality is another thing You can fantasise about animals and not be a zoophile, the human brain sometimes seeks the taboo to get more adrenaline from the arousal. Ever wondered why the biggest sexual fantasy is the r*pe one? Comics or other media (that won’t include real animals) won’t absolutely make you a zoophile, especially if you’re not using them anymore

Remember that OCD will try to attack you values and morals sometimes. You said you hate sexual predators, your brain is just trying to make you feel like one. I was studying politics to help kids in war areas, but I don’t feel like it anymore because my OCD will tell me that I would be a danger

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