My moms going to hate me no matter what if I tell her and it's really really hard. Bc of that my dad told me but he's really right about that she'd hate me for it bcs you're really not supposed to do that kinda thing that he made me have to till you're a very lot older than me and till your a very lot in love with someone forever and after and I'm none of those things. And I really do understand why I have to be hated for it bc it's actually a really bad thing and it hurts a whole very much and makes me feel really bad that bc I'm broken from it and I really understand that too. And I'm just really sorry bc I never meant it and my dad says it's my fault Maddies gone bc I hurt her in moms tummy and I really didn't mean to and really don't think I did but I was the only one with her so it has to be me which is what I feel the most bad for and if I tell mom then dads going to tell her that I'm the one who hurt Maddie and then moms going to hate me a very lot and won't let me be her daughter anymore even and he tells bc then she'll be like really glad he hurt me this much and their going to laugh at me a lot and think it's really funny that I'm broken this very much and there going to live together again but I can't come with them bc he says that want to make a much better daughter than me together now and I know that they really deserve a much better daughter than me especially mom but I don't want her to leave me and hate me and all my life I'm trying to be a very better person for her I just have to try even harder it's just really hard bc he won't let me even and it's really hard when you have to be as sad as I have to be forever but I need to try more and I really am it's just a very hard thing for me to be a good person and I'm really sorry with all my heart I am