This is a good question. The reason i stayed for so long is two reasons, one being because I applied for disability last august after I started working with them and realized how serious my mental health issues really were. I was trying to be consistent, show that I was truly putting in the effort on my side, and that I didn’t quit at the first sign of things being difficult. As I became more depressed the only thing that was helping me was my weekly therapy sessions. When I didn’t know she was lying to me, I trusted her and told her all my trauma and secrets. I was trying really hard to get better and I thought I had to stick it out to do that.