you are not broken!! it took me a while to figure out what I like, too, and it's still an evolving situation. for me, getting turned on and eventually having an orgasm is very mental. I can't just start rubbing my clit and expect to feel good--that wouldn't be comfortable and would honestly probably just end up being painful for me. my mind has to be in it, first. my favorite way to get my mind in the right space when I'm masturbating is reading my favorite fanfiction stories that I have bookmarked--reading fic has also guided me towards learning about certain kinds of sex and sexy things that I like, which is always great info to have about yourself! I wonder if warming yourself up mentally first might help? It could be fic, erotica, porn, audio (I know reddit has a thriving GoneWildAudio community), whatever.