It is totally fine to not love either parents if they have never shown a personality trait worthy of earning your love. My Parents broke up when I was around 18 months, my brother was 3, my father is a fanatical Christian of the worst kind and my mother is an compulsive liar, alcoholic,prescription med junky with serious mental health issues. As a child my parents went through a very bitter divorce resulting in kidnappings, violent assaults, and pure hatred, with me and my brother being the chess pieces in the bitter twisted feud, but my brother didn't have it as bad because he was the golden child of both parents, still it was no fairy tale for him either. My mother got custody of both, not because she really cared about her kids, she just didn't want to lose to my father ! As a child it become devastatingly apparent that my mother valued getting trash drunk over the well being of her kids, drunk everyday before lunch time, would much prefer to spend the very minimal money we had on, alcohole, meds, drug dealing to support her trashy existance, gambling and drop kick boyfriends, quite regularly no power in the house, no food, no mother due to incarceration or metal health facilities, she would go missing on drunk, drugged benders for 4 to 5 days and leave us to fend for ourselves with no power or food, our cloths always ratty, overall general appearance was less than favorable, other friends wouldn't understand a house with no food or power so it made me feel alone and less than. The amount of times as a child I had to go outside and pull my mother drunk, unconscious, covered in urine or vomit out of taxi's due to getting that trashed she couldn't control her body like a normal functioning person, by the age of ten I must have seen her piss her own pants around once or twice a week, friends parents would get to know about my mothers ways and would not let their kids hang out with us due to my mothers pathetic attempt at being human, and people would treat me different due to being the child of a drug dealer, the thousands of times I was reduced to tears got to the point it really started to knock around my overall health, being upset and on edge every waking moment was extremely detrimental to a child's overall health and happiness. I started have seizures on a regular basis due to being underfed and such a stressful existence. My soul could not feel happiness at all due to the constant misery that was my life. It's not like she didn't know it was really effecting us, it's just she loved herself more than her own children ! Fast forward to high school, nothing had changed at all, if anything it got worse due to her parents deaths, she had nobody to give a fuck about after they passed, but I started to do well with girls and she would do anything to sabotage my relationships by being an absolute cow at any chance possable, or if she knew I might be running into a girl, she would get proper smashed because she knew it would ruin my happiness ! I must have had 6 to 10 girlfriends from my past who all hate my mothers guts, I even had one girl break up with me because she could never be with someone who came out of my mother and shared half of my genetics with this pathetic example of a human. I couldn't go to live with my father because even though he was financially secure, he would bash us up as kids whilst reading quotes from the bible and use to bash our pets to the point where their broken ribs would be coming out through their skin and have to be put down with his guns, so that wasn't an option either. Neways this could go on forever but I'll cut a long story short, I'm now 33, hate both my parents with a passion but I am overall in a lot happier place, they have shown me all this things not to do as a parent, how to be a decent human and to appreciate the beautiful little happy things that pop up in life ! Life is way too short to waste it on people who are not worth it ! I strongly believe some form of a permit should be aquired to have the responsability of raising a child !