How about you read a book called "How to Win Friends and Influence People" instead. You are not as alone as you think you are. Self-doubt, fumbled socialization attemps, etc happen all the time to lots of people. If you want others to care about you, just care about them first. Forget yourself as much as you can. Pretend the need to connect isn't as pure and maddening as it feels. Be helpful, honest, encouraging, to others even if you feel they don't deserve it or fear you'll be laughed at or thought of as weird. See what you can give to the world and don't expect an immediate return on your investment. Just give of your time and energy to whoever needs it. Give pocket change to homeless people, volunteer for some sort of service work (but not the military). What goes around eventually comes around. You can't make anyone like you, but you can make yourself a nice, friendly, helpful person. Everyone loves people like that, so long as you are sincere about it. Take control of your thoughts, actions, and motives. It might seem scary, but it is the only way to live free and happy.