I thought you were an asshole at first but im glad we spoke a bit. There is some truth to what you're saying .

I could use some extra weight for sure. I love to cook and on a good week I'll make probably 40% of my meals. I really should be taking in more than the probably 1200 calories I'm taking in now.

With regard to clothes, you're spot on. I dress like a dork. An ex gf of mine dragged me to the store recently to get a bunch of new clothes. She lives in another state, stopped by for a weekend while visiting her family ( I live 5 minutes from her folks, she swings by for fun times but no bedroom stuff ). Between her and my sister I've been dressing much better. I got some nice jeans, a bunch of shirts, a new cologne, told to shave my balls. Good advice.

I just feel at my end. This isn't one date mind you, not sure if you picked up but in the last two weeks three super shitty things have happened in my dating life that left me feeling very unappreciated. Two weeks ago I though things were going really well with someone. We had a talk were Sue expressed she wanted to turn that into a relationship with the caveat that she is married and polyamorous. That is bs. I'm not dumb, I was dating and knew the risks just didn't expect that. The other two dates straight up cancelled last minute or outright didn't show up. That shit makes me feel awful. It's not one event that makes me feel this way , it's a year and a half of being single and being treated like shit.

The nice guy comment you made is super insulting. If we met in real life I suspect we would get along. I'm not sitting around fiending about someone I can't express myself to or project unrealistic expectations on. I think I'm reasonable, or at least previous relationships over years never brought that to light. My issue is I put way too much effort in others and folks put no effort in me. Shit man, my friend had me house sit for a week a couple months ago then straight up refused to help me do a dump run with his truck not even a week later. I called him out and that was resolved but it's shit like that that sucks.