I’ve been in the same rut but for the last 10 years. I’ve been socially alienating and isolating myself and shutting the world out as best as I can but it’s only a matter of time before you have to face your reality. This disorder sucks and I feel your pain. To have to be around people and function is so exhausting and painful. I don’t believe when a guy shows intereet in me, I don’t believe compliments, I don’t believe when people make nice gestures towards me, no matter how minuscule it may be. I try to be good to people though, it helps tremendously. Avoiding isn’t really going to help, look at your reflection everyday. Work on other things about yourself and try to see the good in you, regardless of what you feel about your appearancez