Fighting is already draining enough when everything is against you. You just have to concentrate on only you, so you can be good whenever the opportunity emerges for your child to come back. Keep going to school because it will work out. Especially nursing school. That will do you well. forget friends all u need is 1 good friend. U have to make time for something fun that u actually like doing. and about weight, worrying about this will cause it to be worse. So just take 1 thing away like pop/juice, bread/pasta, and or chips/cookies/cakes. set a time to work out 15 minutes a day and you will start dropping. u just cant let this be your worry.