You're absolutely right. I worded that horribly. I meant a physical person. As in I can almost actually hear her and can no longer get her to quiet at all when I am in a situation that needs alone time or silence.

And I personally don't see it as killing, and my views on tulpas are a bit different than everyone else's.

I am probably in the minority but I think tulpas are real just as my dreams are real. I created my tulpa and she is literally just pieces of my personality and subconscious that I don't show on my surface as much. As in my tulpa can't possibly know a fact or skill that I haven't learned. So while I think they're real in the sense that she's a part of me, I don't see it as "killing" if I were to shut off a part of my memories essentially. I truly think creating a tulpa is like giving yourself a variety of DID. And that's coming from someone who has had a very strong and independent tulpa for 2 years. I knew from the start I was training my brain to have split personality and I was okay with that. Not so sure I am now though as she has made it clear she's set on ruining me with no intentions on making up