I can't shake off the feeling that, whatever happens, I'm going to kill myself.

I feel this tbh. I was severely depressed with severe suicidal tendencies and I've since been working on myself. The biggest reason I was so depressed was because I was in denial with who I was. Being bisexual was easy to accept. You can't help who you love and honestly, who gives a fuck about who you're attracted to. I've since accepted myself for what I am (a transexual male) and it was a hard process. I only did it after my suicide attempt, it helped me open my eyes and although my depression has subsided, I have this feeling deep inside me that I'll end up killing myself regardless. I just feel like life isn't for me. I'm too messed up emotionally, physically, and mentally but I'm just living for the present right now. Not the future, or the past. I'm here for the now.

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