I don’t think you really are mulling over what could have been at all. It’s really odd your post to me, I wish I could understand it better.
But my advice is stop being clueless of men please. By that I mean men are simple for you to worry your lil heart and mind over this is not needed.
Critically think more, your mulling over whatever cause your stuck in thinking one way and it’s a rinse and repeat or said cycle of thoughts.
But if you are women I actually think women should be more venerable meaning like a girl in a way, or like a very self aware woman
Idk how to explain but you simply don’t know how to get what you want. It know what you want exactly and In full.
I know that some girls want their heart broken I actually kind of understand it’s like subconsciously what I do
It’s like a curse but I like the feeling of meeting someone new and it ending but I think I mull over whatever could of been because I wish I could of experience more with them with that person not anyone else
But idk it’s really annoying
Getting ghosted is really annoying or not wanted is really annoying as well
Im starting to not understand the point of a girlfriend i really hate that I’m thinking this way.
But idk a good reason to get a girlfriend maybe I’ll just get a girlfriend simply I could experience things with her
Not really because I love her and want to be with her forever
But idk I just realize men simp because they don’t have GF or a woman in their life and like
It’s lonely to want love well to love when it’s not real love. I like women but
Like I was just thinking how or what is a actual realtionship with a woman?
When I see OF content everywhere like what do they do with their boyfriends?
I’m rambling but I’m thinking maybe it’s actually not that bad to just want sex it’s not objectifying it’s simply not being able about fake love
But idk
I’m rambling again but I feel like if I didn’t shy away from hooking up I could still have the women in my life that I was mulling over in my life still
Truth to that is how many women still talk to their ex or friends with their ex
It’s crazy but idk