I can relate to this. I had a girlfriend at around 18 with ocd that did everything for me and loved me very much that made my life so easy. When we split up it has become apparent that I am incapable of doing anything without being pushed into it. My childhood was so bad that I always thought that that was why I was so messed up.

I went to the docters the a few days ago and broke down crying, I have been given an appointment to ask about getting checked if I have aspergers. Not saying that you have it but I think there is a good chance I do (I could elaborate but thats not what I want this comment to be about). I never really loved my ex girlfriend, I just loved the way that she made me feel and I was too emotionally retarded to tell the difference.

I feel like I have become more comfortable with my own personality in the last few years, I am 30 now. If you are like me then working a job you don't enjoy will be very bad. I ended up unemployed on disability for depression because I did not have the energy to find a new job, I would just get home and smoke and masturbate. I eventually got sacked because I flipped out on someone who was a dick, it was my fault for letting them get to me but I was in a bad place.

I would suggest working overtime or being frugal to get up some savings, dropping to part time and finding a new job with one of your extra days off. Or do some kind of educational thing to better yourself if you can but that will be hard if you have trouble focusing. Also exercise with your extra time, I got so unfit at my desk job(sport was my enemy too, but walking while listening to music is not so bad). That's just the advise I would give to myself when I was 23.

In my opinion the easiest way for someone with a really shitty level of motivation to improve is to become really close friends with someone who is more motivated. Mostly happens by accident though and I feel too weird to force a friendship like that as I find it really hard to relate to people with different personalities.