In my experience as a former red piller and someone who still struggle with resentment against women, I grew up with a mother who would constantly criticize me including my appearance (saying my nose is ugly, chin is weak, my bone structure makes me look fat even if I'm not, saying my dyscalculia means I'm stupid) and I had the feeling she's ashamed of me being her son.

I thought she was just a narcissist but now I have the impression that lots of normal mothers feel they can criticize their sons like this since if the son complain they are failing at being a real man.

I read it's common mothers in USA for example take their boys to doctors with worry his penis will be too small- imagine a gender reversal of that, yet it's ok.

When I've brought up my past and my trauma (I'm diagnosed with ptsd due to my parents shit upbringing) for mental health professionals they also react with disgust at my weakness- one woman asked if I'm in a relationship, then if I've ever had one- I said no and she laughed at me. I was in my late 20's then and yes it's ridiculous to have no experience, but I wouldn't laugh at a woman in my position.

Anyway, so in my experience womens cold heart towards men is ever appearant and makes it difficult to respect them as people- not because I wan't them to feel sorry for me, it's the scorn at men I'm disgusted by- but I try to accept it could be how they're wired. My mother probably have some trauma in addition though, causing all kinds of immaturity.