Changes in My Body Leading to Jealousy

I love myself fine. I had three pretty bad experiences in a row with other people and I establishing boundaries in clear, plaintext communication and almost immediately having those boundaries shattered. Also with an SO’s other interest having a profound and nonsensical hatred of me without ever having met me and attempting for several months to drive a wedge inbetween us. He got really ugly and it lasted a long time. He tried to provoke her to cheer on me multiple times. It was really complicated and messy.

The second time involved a girl and my best friend. I lost my best friend of 15 years because I can’t really forgive what he did and he is now a broken coke head because he fell apart after everything that happened and got into drugs.

So just really, really bad experiences and also not in the right geographical location to give it another go at the moment. It would totally destroy our careers if anyone found out.

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