i know what i did was horrible, and feel horrible for it. tried to go to a therapist to talk about it plus other problems but he was absolutely horrible and wouldn’t not give me any feedback on my feelings, only suggested medication for the anxiety! i’m trying to come to terms with everything that happened, it is just very hard bc i can’t even comprehend that i would be capable of doing something like that to someone i love..me and my bf are trying to work through it and we both know it’s going to be a very long and bumpy road to get to somewhere good again but we’ve been trying. i think it makes him feel better to know i’m actually struggling with it too.