Hi, you sound a lot like me. However, as a result of those chats I discovered that I am actually beautiful and hot. I never considered myself hot or beautiful before. So, I gained confidence about my looks. Now, when I go out in public I see men checking me out and I like the attention, something I was totally oblivious to before. I lost 30 lbs over 6 months and now wearing clothes I love. One of the biggest advantages of those chats is after the hot chat exchanges, my husband and I have the best sex. I imagine he is my AP and just unleash my whole self. He loves it. I cum from PIV (never had one before, only clit) and other cool stuff. I feel bad because I know these are MM and yes it is true, it is addicting. Now, I am at a point where I don't feel the need for outside validation, I think I got enough of that. After a while so much you can do online and it won't be as exciting as your first few ones. But, I get you. If your husband is the type that would feel greatly offended by this, I would not really tell him. It could hurt him really bad and damage your relationship. I would just try to stop and take the good things: knowledge that you are beautiful, hot and desirable. Use that hotness for your husband, in your own bedroom, get creative, get sluttish with your husband.