I don’t know where I truly stand with any of my friends.

I’ve just made friends with a group of four girls at the beginning of the year, one of the girls is sort of a bitch so we iced her out (rather than to bring it to her attention because ???? we’re shit and she’s shit) yet she thinks we’re all friends still. We’ve made it more than obvious that we aren’t cool but she doesn’t wanna take a hint. But I couldn’t give less of a fuck about her; she’s awful.

But I just keep wondering, when will that be me? I’m not being misogynistic in saying that you just don’t know sometimes with other girls. Once confessing our undying love for each other and then the one girl who keeps continually pissing us all off for months on end doesn’t get a courtesy memo. Just bloop. Excluded.

It’s truly a stupid situation but I just don’t know how long these friends will last. I’ve always had trouble in putting too many eggs in one basket. Will I ever have a friend to last a lifetime? I’m only 18 but I haven’t been able to hold on to any close friends at all. Maybe 6 years max but then we all drift away.