That is all true. And that bird is alive and well, I owe it to the heroin I had that day--not that i ordered anymore. She visits me for hours a day, offer kisses and cuddles even though I am bed bound. I never knew budgies could be capable of such love. I had it because my fent analogue got banned and I figured local drugs would be less risky than foreign drugs when they were really trying to crack down. Me without any kind of pain relief = half dead = full dead. This bird visits me for hours, she knows I saved her from certain death.

Second wasn't necessarily about speedballing but making drug supplies last. When analogues end, we get shittier and shitter analogues in their place I found I could use a little of a crappy analogue to strengthen the pain relief of #4 heroin (which I've ordered once.. I found one that is perfect, clear headed and requires no potentiation for pain relief.

And yes, I used carfentanil because I have the chemistry set and know-how to dilute it to safe-for-human levels. I even offered a few bottles to some people I knew and they loved it. The crippled one was jumping in the air. I only wish legitimate carfent still existed. It was perhaps the best opioid ever because it took the pain away for like 12 hours with no withdrawals, compulsive redosing etc.

The quote was 2-3 years after I started getting involved with the dark web. No one in my area was willing to prescribe anything to relieve pain, and I'd be 6 feet under if I had nothing to turn to. Even if it meant breaking the law.