ive tried the ladder and affirmations and vision boards and 555 and dimensional jumping, spell casting, meditation, everything and it's grandmother. deep underneath i have big big big goals and slowly some of them ARE coming to fruition, just not fast enough to solve my immediate needs, so it's like, i'm almost playing a game with myself, where I know ultimately everything will be where I want it to be, or where it's supposed to be, but for some reason I've paralyzed myself with self sabatoge / doubt that makes the "little things" feel more in control. i want to be able to manifest money and look at my checking account and see money in there. i'm not there yet and that's the level i want to be at, because I know that shit is posisble. i know it. i just havne't seen the momentum of the baby steps of progress yet. the bigger background goals are slowly shaping form but not the right in front of me shit, and i want the riht in front of me shit,