I was so close to finally figuring things out and then... *poof*

Yeah my contact with people has been exclusively through internet lately and I am very depressed now. Like I just feel like everyone hates me. I deconverted from christianity maybe like a month ago, which left me in state where I am really not sure if my friends want to continue being my friends and then like two weeks ago I discovered that I'm probably trans and now I really don't want to talk to my friends, because I don't even think its possible anymore that they would accept me. If I came out to my family, then I'm pretty sure that at least my mom wouldn't accept me. Most cis people around me would see me as a freak and mentally ill and TERFs would rather see me dead than as a women. And looking at trans subreddits, I still feel like people hate me or would hate me if they known me. Like some trans women would just see me as fake and hate me and I feel like some trans men hate me already for taking their subreddit. So I just feel like I fucked up my life, I already failed this semester in school and I feel like everyone hates me.

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