I phrased the 1st sentence poorly. I RARELY ever get drunk, I hate the taste of every alcoholic beverage I've tried EXCEPT a fish bowl. Before now, I've been a gamer nerd/addict and never tried at all with girls. I have NEVER had any kind of intimacy with girls and I hate getting drunk and only do it because girls look hotter. This upcoming fall semester I do plan to try to casual sex lifestyle. Every women I've asked told me that I look attractive/above average.
But I am an Asian male, I'm skinny as fuck (and mainly because of that and my height, I have a small penis) and I'm only 5'7" (I need to be at least 6' so there is enough height difference between me and the average American girl). I fucking hate my weak not-prominent-enough brow ridge, my weak jaw, my overly-large lips, and my chameleon-esque "pop eyes" that I inherited from my ugly mom. "Pop eyes" are made possible because of the overly-large vertical separation distance between my eyebrow and eye, which is a very femi9 and hence unmanly and fugly trait. If there's one thing I could remove, it's that vertical separation distance. Then I wouldn't have "pop eyes" as it would be physically/structurally impossible. I look more juvenile (less sexually developed hence less masculine and more feminine) cause all babies naturally start out as slightly femi9 but in puberty girls faces don't change much but they develop ass/boobs/hour-glass body, while guys become more and more manly both in their face & body and therefore less and less femi9. Femi9 and manly are like 2 things on the opposite ends of a spectrum: imagine -10 = max femi9, 10 = max manly, and 0 = androgynous weirdo.
Check out my scientific analysis about Asian male fulginess. Asian women have it bad too, they got small ass/tits and not much hour-glass body. These child-like sexually under-developed girls tend to snag white pedophiles or whites with latent pedo tendencies. Asians should slowly die out from population controls, and make the world a sexier, hotter place.
**One day, I asked my mom if she overall finds white men to be more physically attractive than Asian men. Told her to be brutally honest and that I wouldn't hate her response. She said yes. I was initially fine with it. I've long had suspicions that white men are overall more manly than juvenile/sexually-underedeveloped, short, skinny, feminine Asian men. And I've got the science to back it up to.
But then I realized: SHE KNOWINGLY BROUGHT AN INFERIOR BEING INTO EXISTENCE, A BEING WHO WOULD BE FORCED TO HAVE SIGNIFICANTLY LESS HAPPINESS IN THE USA THAN THE AVERAGE AMERICAN WHITE MAN. SHE IS AN EVIL SELFISH STUPID BITCH FOR GIVING BIRTH TO ME, SHE SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS OVER-POPULATED WORLD A FAVOR AND ADOPTED A KID, ADOPTED KIDS ARE WORSE-OFF USUALLY. BUT NO, FUCK HER, SHE JUST WANTED TO AND HAD TO HAVE KIDS. SHE HAS COMMITTED ONE OF HUMANITY'S WORST CRIMES AND DESERVES HELL 10 TIMES OVER. IF I COULD I WOULD SLOWLY BURN ALL HER SKIN OFF WITH A LIGHTER, MAXIMIZING HER PAIN.
SHE IS ALSO TAKING HALF OF MY DAD'S SAVINGS AND RECEIVING ALIMONY PAYMENTS FROM MY DAD IN AN UPCOMING DIVORCE. SHE IS EXPLOITING THE LEGAL SYSTEM FOR HER SELFISH ENDS. I GAVE HER A CHANCE OF REDEMPTION, I GAVE HER A CHANCE TO RATIONALLY CONVINCE ME THAT SHE MORALLY DESERVED THE MONEY, SHE DIDN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT CAUSE SHE KNOWS SHE'S AN EVIL SELFISH BITCH.**