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I feel, and have felt the same as you for most of my life, we have identical views on the world around us, and very similar experiences too, there have been some times where everything becomes too much and in the moment I don't want to exist anymore, but when something good happens it keeps me going, like if someone goes out of their way to talk to me, or invites me somewhere, or I achieve something, someone praises me, or if I'm doing something I feel is fulfilling.

Those fleeting moments keep me going you know? and they don't happen often, not at all, but they make life worth living.

How I cope is detachment, it's probably not the best advice, but at one point I was realised I was surrounded by friends, who I went out of my way to socialise with, who would never do the same in return. I simply stopped trying and they were not a problem anymore, one good friend is worth a dozen people who are only friends by name and not their actions.

I used to read the headlines of the news and become angered by the state of the world we are in, people fight over the most trivial of things, it seems like the world is becoming a worse place to live in each day, our "leaders" represent the worst qualities of humanity, and I'm constantly reminded that humanity is equally brilliant and foolish. The future doesn't look as bright as it used to, and the planet is slowly dying.

I realised that it all doesn't matter, I can't change who these people are, I can't solve the world's problems, and my vote is just that, a single vote. I've never heard of an election decided by a single vote, what is the point in becoming so invested?

I take life as it comes, you need to take control of your life, live how you want with what you have, and as long as you are happy with who you are, that's all that matters.

In the lowest point of my life I didn't care about anything and never showed up for my final exams, so when it became time to go to college it was a struggle, the people there made me feel like I had something to prove to them, which I did, and I realised that achieving made me feel good, getting my grades was a cherished memory, because I had worked hard for it.

Now I'm continuing my studies and I don't even know whether they are worth anything, I picked a course on a whim, I have no career goal in mind at all. I could've easily gotten an office job and have been paid more, I could aim for the top career in my field of study, but I still don't think that I'm smart enough, or that I can do it, and that's fine, we all are asked what we want to be when we grow up as a child, and that mentality carries on into adulthood, even if you don't become an astrophysicist, whatever you're studying right now opens up opportunities, so that you can find where you fit in. I might not become anything special, but I won't retire having worked at a fast food restaurant, or a postman, etc for my whole life either.

I can't tell you that the world isn't how you described it, since it really is, but again life is about making the most of your situation, you need to find something that makes you happy, and that doesn't have to be what makes other people happy, like clubbing etc. You don't have to meet other people's standards just your own, set them high.

There is a quote I like as well but I can't seem to remember it, the basic idea is that the world moves on no matter what you do, you could live a social life and make many friends, and when you die the world would move on, you could do the opposite, and the world would move on, you could do astrophysics and the world would move on, the world is uncaring, so you shouldn't live for the world but yourself.

This probably sounds like motivational garbage, it probably is, but it's helped me. I don't take things as seriously anymore and just take life as it comes, if something bad happens then it's out of my control, and I'll work to put it behind me.

The moment we're born we start dying, some faster than others, we all have a clock that's counting down to our deaths, I feel like recognising this makes life precious, why throw it away because of things out of our control? Just focus on ourselves

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