OK well, fetishes are weird and sometimes they can develop even when you don't really want them to. I'm not knowledgeable on the subject by any means but here's me thoughts....

There's definitely a part of me that has a cuckold kink. And that's not something that I particularly like because it flies in the face of a lot of the internal work I've had to do for my mental health.

My own personal theory is that it developed because all of my best friends growing up ended up getting together with girls that I liked. Oops, lots of issues stemming from that probably.

Uhhh, so my friends and I would have a lot of slumber parties (read: too stoned to drive home) in high school a lot. Everybody else was coupled up except for me so every night I would fall asleep to the sound of other people having sex. Later on in college I let my best friend at the time stay in my room while I was homeless and he used to bring girls back there and fuck them while they thought I was asleep (or just didn't care).

So like, all that shit hurts a lot but at the same time, I would often end up getting pretty aroused during. And like, sometimes I would be over hearing some pretty hot sex and I felt envious as hell but also super turned on.

And that kink never really went away. So, there's a peak into my fucked up issues with sex and my ongoing struggle with it. Excuse me while I go die of embarrassment.