This is my experience

I got a job at a place that uses an in house code editor that's basically drag n drop nodes. Been here almost a year.

I wanted to be in front end web development but they really wanted a full stack guy with the label of front end. They hired a full stack guy and I'm stuck on content using a tool with no resources. I can't Google. I have to ask the person who made it and maintains it.

Guy's a saint for putting up with me. But god dammit it's fucking annoying. I wish I could just use some Google. On the flip side I'm absolutely terrified. If I lose my job? Well I'm a year out from college and I have no new knowledge from the web development world.

Nobody else would give me the time of day. I'm not getting paid what I should be for my experience and area.

Plus sides are that my coworkers are easy to work with and friendly. And I don't really have hard set deadlines on my work. My boss is friendly and doesn't breathe down my neck.

But the down sides make it really hard to focus or stay motivated. It's fairly lonely and isolated work. My brain basically shuts off after 6 hours. But throughout that distraction I'm terrified that somebody will see that I'm not working. So it's this constant battle of trying to stay focused and trying to care knowing that if I lose my job we will lose our home if I can't find equal paying work. I feel stuck. But I feel simultaneously lucky and guilty for the position I'm in. It's rediculous.