When I first started going to therapy about three years ago I felt anxious about wasting money and thought constantly about the price per minute, hated getting on the train and the blocks around it i would have to walk, would stress about not knowing what to say... but the one thing that helped those anxieties and thoughts was therapy. It got easier. Every session isn’t going to make your life significantly better and I didn’t enjoy it in the beginning but just a half an hour ago i had my therapist where i cried because there was a I felt like I had a breakthrough. three years later i am so glad i have it every single week and when i told my therapist thoughts like “having a doctor for my stupid problems is a waste” and how i would have anxiety about having enough to say or about not saying anything, i was able to get over that. it feels empowering to have someone understand you and recognize your feelings as legitimate, but who understand when your thoughts are irrational and damaging.