Constantly feeling depressed. Every. Single. Day.

One of the main triggers is alcohol which is hard for me to give up because everyone around me does it and quite frankly I enjoy it. So I'll probably just keep finding ways to convince myself that it's ok to get drunk or at least worth the risk. I'm not gonna let some random misfortune control the decisions I make - why should I have to change my life for this? And I don't like telling everybody around me about epilepsy because then they think I'm seeking attention or something... they will think differently of you, I guarantee it. Also, I definitely feel like a burden when my entire work building has to be closed for the ambulance because I had a seizure, or when I ruin the vibe of my friend's party, or when class is cancelled because of me. Regardless of whether people get it, they are judging me in one way or another. My peers act completely different around me now.. most prefer not to be around me.

/r/Epilepsy Thread Parent