Constatly stuck between trying to be positive and wanting to scream at him

I read your post history to get some context out of this. Must've been one of the saddest stories I've ever read, there were paragraphs which hit me like punches to the gut.

He said he was starting to get his drive for me back

So you confronted him about his porn addiction? I hate to be the one to twist the knife, but do you think that if you hadn't found out he wouldn't have kept lying to you that it's stress and blahblah and not make any attempts to get back to having real sex and not fantasy wank? You're really willing to let that go? I'd be super resentful because it's practically cheating, yes it's not with another physical girl but he clocked out of your sex life so he can wank to porn ffs!

I wouldn't even let him see me naked anymore when I changed because I thought maybe he'd realize he hadn't seen me naked in a while, and want to! Well he said that was a step back because it wouldn't allow sexual desire to build up for him.

Yeah right. Clothed women are sexier than completely naked ones. There's no greater power than imagination.

What a waste of a beautiful, young, caring person, to be reduced to a crying, insecure mess. What a piece of utter shit to mistreat you this way. And you keep trudging, walking on glass, hoping that maybe. It sounds humiliating.

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