You should stick around because lets be honest by the sound of it, it cant get any worse, you have nothing to lose and because of this, everything to gain, i think about killing myself all the time but then what ? Infinite sleep ? Nothingness ? Some realm of consciousness we cant comprehend ? Whatever it is we will find out someday but why rush it ? Stay and suffer a little lol suffering gives you strength and a strong person with nothing to lose can do anything in this world, you dont need other people to make you happy, fuck your ex boyfriend he doesn't care about you or he'd still be there, those people dont matter, jobs and money dont matter i mean they can give you material shit but you need something more, what you need is to realize you can make your life better through being fearless, be fearless of failure, i mean its the only thing holding you back isn't it ? Fear is your own mind lying to you, its telling you theres no hope, maybe im wrong and your right, maybe there is no hope but atleast try to fix your shit rather than just giving up and dying because we all fucking die but its whether you want to die knowing you gave it everything or just gave up because shit got too hard. You know you can do it.