Thanks for you reply!

Good point about dating. We went out to eat this week, but it didn't change my feelings. I might have to put more effort into doing it more often. We rarely do stuff together because our hobbies and even TV shows aren't aligned at all. Our activities come down to taking walks with the dog and sometimes sex. I really miss having someone to game with, make or listen to music with, and go to rave parties with.

If I'm being honest I think I miss guys because of the sex. But I feel like I haven't given guys enough chance since I only had a couple one night stands. I miss the adventure as well.

I know doubting your relationship is healthy sometimes, but I've been panicking over it for way too long and it's making me feel miserable.

My girlfriend is strictly monogamous and despises the idea of even looking at other people. She's pretty insecure and wants me all to herself, which I can totally understand. I've been watching porn in secret and she has been mad at me multiple times when she found out I did.