Coping with suicidal thoughts

That's good that you have people who care and want to help, and that you're seeking professional help. That is important. I don't know if I have the answer for you, everyone is different, what works for some doesn't work for others. I have not been diagnosed clinical depression, but your post kind of spoke to me due to recent events in my life. I won't pretend I know exactly what you are feeling, having an ex suffer from depression I understand it is a major difference from feeling depressed. Maybe this will help, I don't know. The other day I was sitting on my bed, I looked at my doorknob, then I looked at my belt and just started bawling. I had thought about it before, but it was the first time in my life it ever felt real, possible. It was overwhelming. I hate to give this advice because I don't want you to think I'm trivializing how you feel. But life is full of possibility, it truly is. Sometimes suffering feels never ending, but things can change. Things don't always have to be how they are. It sounds like you are doing the right things, it may not feel that way but you are. If you haven't already try distracting yourself with things you enjoy. Hell or even things you don't. I absolutely hate working out, hate it. But when I get into my thoughts I find when I my body through the pain of working out I don't really think of anything other than that. Once I'm done the negative, dark thoughts are kind of pushed to the back. But most importantly never be afraid to lean on the people you care for and who care for you. Even if it's just to sit in their company, sometimes that makes the difference

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