Core fear?

I don´t really care about other people.
When I meet someone new I´m neutral and always make up my own mind about them.

But when I belong to a group like for example at work, I often think the others don´t like me, because I always make sure that everything goes according to plan and that I follow the rules.
I don´t tell others to follow the rules, but by following them myself I often get complimented by my boss because I´m very reliable and maybe this makes my colleagues at work jealous and then they hate me?

Deep inside I know this isn´t true, but I´ve been bullied in school because I´ve never been like other girls of my age (I was more of a tomboy being interested in dinosaurs, animes, space etc. and I always loved rules and structure) and so I kinda kept the belief that I´m not lovable the way I am.

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