Look at the bright side. Family, money, and your health. I’m going to try and get into the suboxone clinic, I’m being selfish by continuing this cycle. All I care about is getting high and it hurts everyone around me, I’ve lost friends that I’ve know. For years because of this. I’ve lost friends that have od’d. I’m only doing it to mask the pain which is only because I choose to think I need it. All in all, I don’t need it and I need to realize that there’s REAL ways to beat my pain, that’s just enjoying life and knowing that my mother didn’t watch the love of their life spirall downhill and ruin themselves chasing a high. I’ve relapsed to many times and this time I’m going to a suboxone clinic, which I plan to ditch that when I’m comfortable again. You can do it, what I said may not matter. I’ve been told this time and time again. But I hope this gets to you.