Your not alone. I been feeling depressed myself. Although I learned to combat my depression with music that makes me feel alive instead. Whereas some turn to worse things. Its not fun to run alone. Myself i was in military for a bit. Not that I got to go to BCT or AIT. I ended up injuring myself (my back) not long after going it. Though I was kept 3 months until I pushed to go home, Because they did not want me to finish no matter the argument I had or the desire i showed to finish. Anway due to my back injury I was also told by their PT Captain that when I go home I need to find another job because with my current job I will injure my back more. I am a CNA and well I hear those words in my head everytime i go to work. I attended school for my AAS in Business Management only thing is that i cannot land a job in the field. I learned even good grades mean nothing, It all about the real life experience. Not much of which i was able to obtain since I am still that CNA. This depresses me because I hurt in the am when I work the day before. I feel like someone wired my bones together so I cannot move. To start the day is a struggle. Some days when I wake up my head hurts like I had drank 2 cases of beer and 3 bottles of hard liquor. If it is not that than Its I cannot sleep due to pain. ( when I move in my sleep) In all i turned to work from home but that is another story. In the meantime I cry to myself and ask myself Why did I fail? Why me, What did I do wrong to deserve this? For this I find myself wanting to sleep more and pray I wake up in a better life. As of lately I have been telling myself to train my brain to think different, because it can be done I need to feel good about myself. I need to get out of my crazy self pathetic box I created. So as you can see You are not alone and Hopefully we can all fight this together. Be stronger and find happiness. I know its not an easy road and there is no on and of switch. I think you can do this find what makes you happy and try to focus on that first. :) I agree with Throwaway_Thataway_1 . Take time to reboot.