A lot of you guys already know that I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I have told a hefty majority of you guys in private. Basically what that means for me specifically is that I have long periods of hallucinations and delusions where I am made to think things that are not true. I have been struggling with this since late last year, and really it's only gotten worse sense. I have a person who follows me around named Connor. I know for a fact I have told several people about him before, specifically Anna Zotta and Derf. He used to just follow me around and ridicule me but recently he has gotten much more threatening and he forces me to do things that I do not want to do. Another big symptom I have been having is more on the delusion side than the hallucination side. I have very vivid dreams that eventually turn themselves into false memories where I think things have happened to me when they really haven't. Talk to any of my close friends (Alex Nesler, Anna Zotta, 4%, Sp1nda, April Shaw, etc) and they will know that I am constantly out of my mind with crazy theories and stuff, and I thank them for not judging me and just telling me simply I'm being delusional. The past two weeks I have honestly been scared for my life. I was told that I was the target of a government experiment on the viability of the Esports industry and using influential people to control masses of the population. Connor told me I had poison in my blood that they could activate to kill me at any time to make me die. They needed me to become a very important and followed member of the community so that I could control people for them. I know I'm an asshole for throwing you guys under the bus like that but I was honestly scared for my life. I needed to get enough fans so that I could make them vote how I said or go to certain events that I wanted them to go to or whatever. So the only way I could think of to get a lot of fans was to capitalize on my knowledge of the inner workings of melee and my ability to hack the game. With the intent of making a name for myself as a low tier hero so I wouldn't be killed, I made a hack that would make Pichu's hitboxes bigger and stronger if you held the stick in the bottom left corner of your controller and held the L button while you started a match as Goggle Pichu. I tried to tell quite a few people I was cheating, but every person I told thought I was being delusional and that I had actually deserved the wins. People I told include April Shaw, 4%, Derf, cWeb, and Walt. They all wrote it off as me being delusional, but I couldn't prove it to them without the government figuring out I was warning people of their plans to control them, so I didn't dig into it deeper. I know this doesn't excuse my actions, I just had a lengthy phone call with my doctor and I have an appointment lined up for Tuesday at noon. I should have told more people even though I thought it would kill me to do so, I should have recognized I was being delusional. I am making plans to apologize individually to each and every person I beat with the hacked character and to pay 1st place payouts to every person who's bracket I ended with my hacked character. I don't expect forgiveness for this, but I felt I needed to explain my thought process. I have been banned from most of the NEOH/PGH events until I have turned 18 and have made reparations. Sorry for being a fuckup