[Critique] 39/m need help removing prickliness and negativity

Thanks for replying.

Every word in this reads as though you are hating it. It sounds like you dislike parts of yourself and you think women dislike other parts but in both cases, you've decided that's just who you are and fuck it and fuck women too.

Really? What are you getting that from?

I suspect that if that's your take, then we wouldn't get along at all because you just wouldn't be able to relate to me and vice versa (more on this later). But, my primary goal in getting feedback is finding out how people I generally can't relate to perceive what I've written.

I don't find poly dating hard, so that's also surprising. I do think that online dating is extremely asymmetrical and that people who give advice seem to forget that.

I can't pretend that you're reading it because I know nothing about you.

The last time I played a board game was probably a year ago. Should I include that detail?

The last person I met via OKC had a much more busy life than I do. In terms of available time, I could go out on a date every day. It's hard to write about what I'm doing with my life because I generally feel like I waste a huge amount of time, I'd love to meet interesting people and expand my horizons, see things from another perspective etc. Doing that seems very difficult because the advice seems to be: Be an average person who can relate to others, knows how relationships are supposed to work, etc. That's misrepresentative of who I am and what a date with me would be like (boring, uncomfortable, tedious, lacking connection), so I'm conflicted between desire to be honest and desire to connect with someone who's willing to spend time with me as I reinvent myself and learn to be human.

I suppose if I wrote my profile as clearly and directly as possible it'd be something like: I'm an extreme introvert. I have a lot of unfulfilling, meaningless hobbies and interests. I've recently realized that part of why life is so horrible is because I need human contact, but I'm absolutely horrible at relating to people. I recently took a personality test and was pleased to find out that I'm not a psychopath. I absolutely loathe doing anything that an actual robot could do and I hate filling out forms. So, if you'd like to interact with someone who was effectively a robot until a recent awakening (have you seen Ex Machina?), and who may be slightly mentally unstable (not in a kleptomaniac bipolar borderline personality way, but in a existential crisis way), but generally has good intentions and loves being affectionate, psychadelic drugs, long conversations (though it can be painful to get to the point where I can open up), sharing awesome old movies, long walks thru underwater lagoons of unimaginable beauty, and doing things that I've never done before (I'd love it if you'd introduce me to things that you like) then write me a message. I accept everyone and am generally judgement free, but I'll probably play devil's avocado if you force me to talk about politics. I enjoy sex, but it's not important to me to find a sexual relationship via OKC. Ok, I might have been hallucinating that underwater bit.

This is why trying to fit that into OKC's format is worse than petting a cat backwards. If I copy pasted the above directly into the self summary bit, would that be better?

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