I just really don't want this to be over. I know I'm only 21 and I'll find love again but damn it, I love this man so much. He is my best friend in the whole world, he gets me like no one else does and he loves me so much, possibly even more than I love him. I'm so terrified this is a lost cause because how can I marry/have kids with someone I cannot be 100% certain isn't a pedo? Surely that is step 1 in picking a partner, after what, like not being a murderer? I'm scared this makes me a shitty human being and a decent person would never date someone that doubts they arent a pedo, OCD or not. I keep crying randomly the last 3 days about this because I just don't want this to be over.