There is nothing I can say to you, expect share my experience. I'm 18 years old, I've been skin gambling on CS for 3 years now. In those 3 years, my life has become utterly terrible and give me emotions of suicide and depression even at the age of 15. I remember I first started out using my birthday and Christmas money. I lost it all, I was depressed for over a month until my parents gave me my allowance. As soon as I received it, I put it into gambling, I felt ecstatic, I was winning, I was up over $1,000. I go to sleep feeling on top of the world that night. I wake up, first thing in my mind if more gambling. I start betting, I'm up again! Hours later I lose it all. I end that night crying in my bed for hours(Please don't think of me as a bitch, this meant and literally still means the world to me.) I wake up, I stay in my room all day, waiting for the weekend to be over so I can go to school and try to get my mind off of it. I can't stop thinking and feel regret. Age 16, birthday and Christmas come again. I decide to buy a PS4! I get back into CSGO after my terrible trauma with the micro transactions. I sell my PS4, my mother yells at me, I bet all the money I had, I'm up, I'm down, almost lose it all, up again. End the night with profit, I'm happy. I'm telling my self that I'll cash out, it won't end up like last time. It happens, I lost it all, my mind is at a blank the only emotions I felt at the time was regret and "why" in life. What more do I have? I was very anti-social at the time. My grades plummet, I have to go to summer school. Worst experience and most boring thing ever. I try to play CSGO but it just kept reminding me of gambling, I uninstall. I get into rocket leauge, I decide to buy skins for that game, I know I can't gamble them away since it's impossible to gamble on there. I watch some CS gambling videos since they were in my recommended, I feel the urge. I sell the rocket league skins and bet on CS-GO BIG. I lose it all in 3 coin flips I fucking lost it. I felt anger and depression for probably a week straight until I decided to just binge watch television shows on Netflix. I'm 18, senior in highschool, part time job. I save money for college, probably about $7500 at this point over the course of I think 8 months. I've still been playing csgo and I have a couple of skins. That feeling comes AGAIN and AGAIN I can't fucking stop it. I put over $2,000 of into skins and its gone, I fucked up again. This all happened last week. I don't know what to do, it keeps coming back. I fucking hate what I've become with this addiction I shut my family out and put negative emotions on them subconsciously. All I can say is please, don't do the dumb shit I've done. It's destroyed my mentality and social life even as a 15 year old.