What province do you live in? I’m in Alberta and there’s an abundance of mental health resources that I’ve accessed. There’s a hospital in camrose that has a mental health ward and it’s self check in, you don’t have to be deemed “bad enough” by a professional to get that round the clock care, they run programs all day, there’s always a psychologist on site that if you need to visit, they’ll get you in a time slot within 24 hours, they feed you and you even have a tv in your room. Although it’s more specificity for getting your mind, mood and depression under control, I’m not sure how much help there would be for your BPD specifically, but there is cognitive behavioural therapy. Do you have a psychiatrist or psychologist?