I’m right here with you. I’ve tried to stop dating because of this, but then I met this guy in town that I took home and we had sex and then he wrote me so much after and seemed so interested and I wasn’t even sure that I liked him, like at all, but I liked the validation and then I saw him again and it was fine, but then he didn’t text me after the second time, so I made up a lie that I was sick, just to get his attention... AND I DONT EVEN LIKE THIS GUY.. but it’s like I need him to like me otherwise my world will fall apart.. it’s so messed up, I know... and I hate myself for being this way. I told him that I wasn’t sick anymore and then he slowly stopped messaging me again (now that he knew I was “fine” I think) and then I texted him saying “why are you being such a dick” because now I’ve apparently gone to the low of negative attention is better than no attention.. he just texted back “what? Haha” and I never replied and deleted our conversation.. to be honest I usually can keep this stuff more in check, I’m in therapy twice a week and I’ve put chains on myself when it comes to dating and I feel like I’ve learned a lot even tho it’s baby steps, but I’ve been feeling so lonely lately...