i have a pretty addictive personality. i smoke weed every day, use nicotine incessantly, occasionally get addicted to kratom, and about 2 months ago i got addicted to snorting hydromorphone but i thankfully quit. im a polyaddict and ive pretty much abused anything ive gotten my hands on.

idk i just have this empty feeling constantly, and its been really bad lately and i dont really leave the house and i have like 2 people that ive talked to for years now.

theres just nothing to fucking do day after day and the monotony is driving me insane i swear. ill occasionally get really into a video game, like i started playing old school runescape in early february, put 8 days worth of time into the game in a span of 30 days and just burnt myself out. my entertainment and enjoyment from everything i like seems to fade and its freaking me out

anyway i started feeling particularly low earlier and ended up taking some valium and smoking a lot of weed so im rambling haha

wish i had some advice to offer you but i could definitely use some myself

anyways stay safe, have a good day or night