no problem! it seems you’ve done your research on both disorders. i was diagnosed years ago and never looked into it until recently, so there’s still a lot i’m uninformed of.

i think it’s smart you took the time to really understand this part of you, and i applaud you for trying to better yourself as BPD has personally caused me to lose a lot of good things in life. however, don’t be too hard on yourself. there is no such thing as “normal” and everyone has something “wrong” with them.

this is just my opinion, but i think some things are more talked about (like depression/anxiety) because there’s a pharmaceutical market for them. personality disorders are complex and don’t really have a one way quick fix to them. i don’t mean to rant off your topic, but i feel that’s part of the reason there isn’t much we can do to “cure” or understand ourselves.

i wish there were a variety of resources but hopefully you’ll have luck with the hotline. you’re wanting to improve and because of that alone i think you have a good chance. you seem intelligent and strong, and i’m sure there are many positives to you. don’t over focus on the negative. good luck and i’m rooting for you ♥️