DAE see their head & body differently(pre-t) tw:dysphoria

I definitely do, I’m pre T too but I think I’m about as masculine as I can be in my presentation and have socially transitioned in many circles (mostly in my recovery community and among my queer/trans friends and to my sister). I wear a binder everyday and wear mostly men’s clothes and take advantage of the ol’ layering tricks lmao. But I still have hips and am short so I have more dysphoria about my body. I think my face looks like a teenage boy, pretty typical for better or worse. I’ll have strangers sometimes gender me correctly based on my face/men’s haircut- if they don’t hear me talk lol. I think I’ve done a lot to make the way I carry myself and my expression more stereotypically masculine lol (if such a thing exists). I’m proud to have done so much to present in a way that makes me feel euphoric before T. Not to say that there is a right or a wrong way of being a man, but I’m a lot happier with how I present than I’ve ever been. And it makes me happy that the most masculine thing about me (face/hair) is the main thing others are paying attention to when they interact with me. When I’m feeling really dysphoric it sometimes helps me to just focus on my face. The other day I was buying cigarettes and handed the cashier my ID and she didn’t think it was me- in my picture I’m wearing lipstick and makeup and look extremely femme lol. I got that picture taken when I was 22-23 and I’m 26 now, and she was like “wow, you look so much older there!” So I guess looking like a teenage boy has its benefits lmao and it made me feel like the efforts I take to present as the guy I am are paying off even though I’m not able to medically transition yet.

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