I'm done drinking for the next few months, will try 6 months then see how it goes. I'm done being a violent aggressive drunk. I'm just not in the frame of mind at the moment to consume alcohol. 2 nights ago I went out with our friends and my girlfriend and I got so wasted my memory disappeared. So I was told I sucker punched my one of my friends. Her friends left when I started acting up and I got insecure and aggressive towards my girlfriend she had to leave me in the bar. I almost was ran over by her cab driver because I tried to force myself into the cab. I was bruised really badly. I got home and she almost called the cops on me because I pushed her and almost beat her up. She almost left and I forced her to stay. I kept saying stupid things to her and everyone who tried to calm me down. She almost broke up with me. This year its the 3rd time I've become violent aggressive and insecure when I get drunk and lose my memory. The last time I was taken to jail for the night because I caused a scene with my housemates. I have unresolved trauma that keeps showing up when I drink too much. In the last 1 year I lost my job and have been trying to get one without any success, I am balls deep in debt I owe money to friends and loan companies and my credit is ruined I can't get a loan. I moved back to my parents house because I can't afford rent, oh and my dad got me a new sibling with the woman he's been cheating on my mother with. My mother has been sick and depressed. I barely have any money to do anything, I depend now on an allowance of $150 per month from my parents. I started a business with money borrowed from friends and family and it collapsed and I don't know how to pay them back. My friends seem to be getting good jobs and advancing in life. I've become less social because I can't afford to go out socially like I used to. I've spent my allowance for the month so am basically left with no money. Sorry for the long post but I just feel like I'm going through so much and I don't know where to even start.