This isn't a pasta and I'm gonna delete this because it's humiliating but - i have bad depression and anxiety and have been out of therapy for a year. I have let my apartment get ridiculously dirty and filled with trash. I snap out of it but I get overwhelmed quick and give up. I still shower, work, socialize but i gave way here on this and it's extremely embarrassing. I'm posting this because: I'm 7 hours deep into cleaning everything because I have to - new property owners are doing an inspection of all units tomorrow. It's 30 past midnight, I need to be at work at 7 AM, i was already exhausted before i started this and all i wanna do is take a shower and crawl into bed. I'm overwhelmed but I'm trying and I'm glad to have the kick in the ass because I've hated living like this. But it's still overwhelming. I've just emailed my therapist to resume therapy but I'm posting this 1) to vent and 2) seek emotional support and cheerleading while i power through this night and my inevitable long day at work. I hate to post this it's hard to admit all this but i could really use the boost right now