I'm having one of those days... Maybe I should just try to give an explanation of everything I do:
About constantly deleting my accounts: I can't help but wonder about bad intentions or whatnot. This shouldn't matter online but I'm on the emotional shitter, what can I do? My logic is that if I'm harsh enough to myself and delete everything, it's harder for me to relapse. If I don't do that, I'll cave in and continue acting in ways I shouldn't act. I end up regretting it but then I see otherwise, so on so on. I'm not sure if I should stick around this place. I still have a great time with the people I regularly talk to but past events (some of them validated my worries) make me obviously concerned. I know no one would miss me but it feels bad putting generally great people aside.
I did feel like I should change my username though, I already deleted my a423 plug account in preparation for a username change and I like to keep a unified username throughout. And yes, my username is randomly generated. Bad day or not, it helps with some goals I'm thinking of setting: comments not being associated with a specific human unless I want to. I think I'd just rather make friendships IRL from now on and just keep talking online with everyone I talk to rn until it's naturally over one way or another.